Phewww! Just catching my breath today. I've been working at a home show booth the last few days and it really wears me out. It's been good to be busy though and not think about infertility too much. I haven't updated in a while because frankly, I've been dreading this blog entry. It's just so blah!! I went to the doctor for my second suppression check Friday, February 18th. I was all excited to move forward with the process since I had to wait a couple of weeks and see if my body was doing better. They did an ultrasound and everything looked great on the right, then they moved to the left and there was a cyst. It was about
1 1/2" in diameter (big for being so new). The doctor said that moving forward would not be a good thing at this time. It's not an optimal environment because the cyst could be giving off hormones. He said we should wait a month and see if it goes away on its own. 2 out of 3 women get them and they just go away. I had blood work done and my hormones looked normal, so hopefully that's a good sign. My next appointment will be around March 18th, so I'll find out if it's gone and I'm ready to move forward. I've heard from several people who are reading this and praying for us. I so appreciate your love and support. I realize there's a lot more pain and heartache in the world that is more important. Thanks for following along on this little journey!
Monday, February 7, 2011
Just a quick update... for those of you who are medically minded, the docs are going to be adding in a growth hormone called Omnitrope in two weeks when I start stimming again. Also, they'll be replacing Lupron with Gonarelex (sp?) which will help me not to ovulate before they want me to, but it won't suppress me as much as before. For now, I'm just waiting, waiting, waiting. I put all my medicine away so I can get my mind off of it. I probably won't blog again till I'm up and running. Have a great two weeks!
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Breaking news...just got a phone call from the nurse with my estrodial, which was 134. Also, they have discussed my case and come up with something a little different. They want me to take the Menopur (one of the stims) for 2 more days so my eggs keep growing, then do a trigger shot on Feb.5th. This will give them more control over when I ovulate so they know when to start me out on medicine next month.
While all of this is super frustrating, all I can do is try to trust the Lord in His perfect timing. I don't put a lot of stock in numbers because it only takes one good egg. It's just the waiting that kills me sometimes. I hope this is building LOTS of character in me. I think of myself as a banzai tree getting clipped into an interesting little shape right now. When you're getting pruned, it is no fun being the tree, but it's worth it in the end! Here's the passage that comes to mind...
1 “I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2 He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes[a] so that it will be even more fruitful. 3 You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4 Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. 5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6 If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. 8 This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.